Sunday
Last night I cried my eyes out. Why? Ask me why? Even if you didn’t I’ll tell you anyway. Inevitable is the word used to describe this. Anyway, I burst out crying for no reason. I was afraid people would see so I went into the living room and sat in the darkest corner. Although there is no such thing as darkest when it comes to my living room…
So I sat there. Mucus sliding out of my nose as if I had a bankful of it and tears blinding my vision. (Yes, I’m flowering my words but what can I do about that? I’m trying to make it more interesting, no?) So my eyes are red and swollen. My parents were in teh sitting room watching TV. Do I want them to see me like this? I stand up and walk to teh door connecting to the sitting room but instead of going out through it I used the door connected to the kitchen.
I walked sideways and up the stairs past my parents. They didn’t even realized I went up the stairs so I stomped my feet. (Talk about drama queen!) But they were too interested in teh movie they were watching or was it news? So I stood at teh top of teh stairs away from their view and cried some more. I wanted them to see but I didn’t. I just wanted someone to care.
I went down after taking coffee from my room and went through the sitting room, past my parents and into the living room again. There. I did it. But they did not see.
I sat down in that corner again and cried a bit more then I played with Photoshop. I was supposed to be doing homework but that didn’t cross my mind until today. Then my parents went upstairs. Later in the night, thunder stroke the dark skies and MAN was it scary. The whole house vibrated, the windows shook and the neighbor’s car alarm went off every thunder strike. It scared me half to hell. I wanted to go upstairs and into my mom’s room. I have a major dislike for thunder. In public I pretend to be brave but privately, my heart jumps. Experience kills an innocent’s naivety. Thunder killed mine.
Then it stopped. My little brother came in the middle of teh night during the thunders and he slept in teh living room. He said he always comes down when it starts to thunder. Why? Ask him. I dunno.
So today, I’m here. And you know what? Uploading was, for the first time on Kura-Kura, easy.
