::Bashi Qu::

The truth is I feel like NOTHING. My mind is so confused right now. The left side of my brain is arguing with the right side of my brain and now I feel like I’m looking at things cross-eyed. Well… I’m not really cross-eyed right now. I just feel off-balanced right now.

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Well… At least I cooked something for lunch today (I didn’t eat lunch or dinner yesterday). It was such a big meal that after seven hours I’m still so full. My stock on food is already diminishing and my side of the refrigerator looks empty. There’s a huge bottle of juice (over 3/4 empty. Wouldn’t even fill a glass.), two pale red tomatoes, a bottle of Bundaberg’s Ginger Beer, a 2l bottle of pre-boiled water and a tub of soft butter with Canola oil that I sometimes use as cooking oil. In the freezer there’s my 3 slices of bread and a box of 3 salmon cakes left from last time. I’m not in need of financial support or anything… I’m just not hungry. I mean, like, I’ve still got a thumb sized ginger that I use when I cook rice, I’ve still got a cup and a half of Jasmine rice, two onions and… 1/4 of sweet potato that I-don’t-think-I-want-to-eat-but-have-to-because-it-would-be-a-waste in my cupboard.

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For some reason, I haven’t got any Indomie stock… Wonder what happened to them? *Looks accusingly at housemates* Kidding man.

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Oh… I went to uni today at 3PM thinking that I had a lecture at that time. When I arrived I was the only one there and I was wondering what happened to the others. I left. I went home, did my laundry, cleaned the kitchen (I need to wipe down two more counters, sweep the second time and then mop tomorrow) and then cursed when I looked at my clock as dread suddenly smacked at the back of my head. My mouth sliced the air with the curses as I checked my timetable through the Uni website and I was right. My lecture started at 4PM and not 3PM.

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I’ve missed two lectures this week. The first lecture was the one I really wanted to go to but someone sent me a prank e-mail saying there was none. DAYMNS! It was a freekin’ "How To Make A Movie" lecture!! And I dunno about today’s lecture. I just hope it isn’t too important.. that concerns tomorrow… AWH man…

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Huh… That reminds me of yesterday. I slept at 6AM and woke up at 7.50AM thinking that I was going to be late for my class and when I rushed uphill and into class I saw strange faces. I asked the teacher where Deidre (my tutor) was and he said this was his class. Not Deidre’s. Turned out… my class was today and not yesterday… I didn’t even have to wake up early yesterday since my other class started at 4PM. That sucked big time.

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Oh yeah, there’s a Brisbane Anime Society (<–link)(abbreviated to ‘BAS‘… hehe~ my nickname~) in the Uni that’s on another part of Brisbane (about half an hour over from here) and I wanna go and register or something like that. I’d like to be a staff member but I don’t know how to make time for school hours, laze-about hours and staff-ing hours ‘coz I’m not organized when it comes to time. Ahh… I’m organized when it comes to arranging things and stuff like that but something as important as organizing or planning time is… what I lack. Haha! (It’s not funny, Bas…)

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I still feel angsty.. and happy at the same time…

"GOD DAYMN! Get out of my freekin’ head Sin! … Sorry but you too Erika…"

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I’m done bloggin’ today~ Laters!

First of all, I’m already used to Australia being hot and cold and weird when it comes to weather. It ain’t so different from UK other thna the fact that seasons here are somewhat the opposite to UK’s…

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Secondly, I love to stare at Australia’s night sky. Blinded from seeing the true Australian land where buildings are shooting out from the ground she’s actually really beautiful. I love the wind and the stars that twinkle with confidence. I also love that star that shine blue.

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Thirdly, I think Uni sucks when it comes to assignments and making students understand what the assignments are all about. I still don’t know what to do for one of my assignments … that has branched off to three… Like… Daymn… And they expect you to know what to do. I mean like… Daymn man… I just got out of high school AND a four month break, you think I’d know what to do?

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Then, the house is quite good. I love living here because it’s close to the uni and a grocery shop. Although the freekin’ landlord has a party every now and again during the night and the early mornings before dawn and he also revs up his motorcycle engine in the afternoon to brag the motor; I try to tolerate.

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And finally… I’m gonna go off and try to explore Brisbane tomorrow. For sure this time! (Since last weekend I was swamped with work and I didn’t get to explore at all. Stayed at home.)

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So that’s all the updates for today guys. If that was boring wait til I tell you about the time I was cooking~ Haha~

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Over And Out!

I can cook Honey CHICKEN!!!

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From Prawns to Fish to CHICKEN!!! I mean…. I AM SUCH A PRO! Fiasco after Fiasco I learned to cook something so delicious that even the taste brings tears to my eyes.

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That’s all~ =P

Well… To those who do not have access to my blog in DeviantART is lucky I guess. I don’t really write here a lot and I waste more of my time in DeviantART. I’ll try to be nice and start putting things up here. I should be able to borrow a camera from the Uni and start my vanity shots in a few weeks time.

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And I guess I have to start thinking about work more than obsession and love. It’s just gonna stop me from thinking straight and when I say STRAIGHT it’s a double meaning.

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And oh, there was this guy who was in the shadows of my MSN messenger who I suddenly asked stuff about this problem of mine. He didn’t help much but he tried. And I wanna thank Jasmika, Rai(den), Tyrant, Shu Shiroi, Ka Qyah and a few others who tried to cheer me up, give me advice and etc.

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And I’m slowly thinking about my future with more… passion now. I used to think "Go with the flow." But… Thinking about it I decided that I’m gonna grab a fallen tree before I drop to the bottom of the giant high waterfall.

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Prepared for Bashima
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  born August 31, 1987
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  DAY-SIGN: 3-Vulture
(Maya: 3-Cib)
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  YEAR: South-2 (

Tikal

System)
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  13-DAY PERIOD: 1-Ocelot
(Maya: 1-Ix)
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  NIGHT LORD: 8
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  VENUS PHASE: Superior Conjunction
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Your Most Personal Traits — The Day-Sign of Your Birth

Here are your strongest and most obvious personality traits. The delineation below describes who you are and how you appear to others, at least on the surface. In Aztec astrology this part of is your horoscope is your Tonalli, or Day-Sign, the form bestowed upon you by the Sun.

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Vulture: You are a person who faces life very seriously. Some Vulture personalities are philosophical, but others among you sing the blues. You have a sense of reality and fatality that makes you seem ultra-realistic and pragmatic to others. You know nonsense when you see it but will also give credit where it is due.

At times, to others, you can seem hard and insensitive. Perhaps your own experiences of hard work, suffering and aloneness are behind this trait. But you probably have an excellent sense of judgment and are extremely competent at what you do, so you can be critical of how others do the same thing. You are really a person of high standards.

One of the most important issues in your life has to do with authority and position. You are acutely conscious of your social or political status at any given moment and tend to be self-conscious when around people who can judge you in some way — you have a kind of rejection-complex. You may have felt rejected or had problems getting along with your parents, in particular your father. For many females this can be somewhat oedipal — you tend to have relationships with father figures.

Although most Vulture personalities maintain their authority and a high position relative to others, some are victims. If you are at a disadvantage in life, you are facing the crucial authority issue from the other side. You could be taken advantage of by others, or even beaten and abused. In some cases, this could be more a social issue, where the majority reject what you believe in.

It is in the giving of advice that you excel. Your challenges in life, plus your acute awareness of what works and what doesn’t in society, gives you the ability to make good judgments for others. In many cases, your high status alone accounts for the value of your advice. Your critical faculties are usually very good and you can be exacting in judgments and in business matters.

Although you are a serious and somewhat fatalistic person, you also know how to enjoy a laugh. What better way is there to lighten the load? You probably have an excellent sense of humor and are possibly a comic — though you tend towards being sarcastic and cynical.

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Your Deeper Self — The 13-Day Week of Your Birth

Each of us reacts to the world around us in different ways. Our reactions are mostly unconscious; they represent what our deeper self needs. Our reactions both attract and repel us from things, people, and situations. What we like, what we like to do, and who we really are is shown by the 13-day week called the Trecena that we were born under. Each of these periods begins with the number 1 and the name of the day-sign that starts it. A number is attached to your position within the 13-day period that may be an important number for you.

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This is the third day of the 13-day period beginning with the day 1-Ocelot. Beneath your surface personality you are an explorer of the human condition, a communicator, and a person who struggles with self-control. You are a private person whom others find hard to reach. This is probably because you tend to become deeply involved in your own thoughts, usually involving some sort of strategic planning. Also, critical events, such as deaths or other powerful transformations, have caused you to turn inward and keep much to yourself. You should be realistic about responsibilities because you tend to either shirk them or take on too many.

I wanna BJD!!! I wanna BJD!!!! nyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! T.T Buy me a BJD!!!

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I wanna take pictures of it and play with it and dress it up! And this isn’t just ANY doll… IT’S A BALLJOINT DOLL!! Barbies and Bratz are crap! BJDs… T.T They can cost around $600 and over…. Ah………I’m so gonna find a way to get rich! I wanna pamper my BJD if I ever get one!!! TT_____TT I should start commissioning my art or something.. (HAHA! I’m WAY too levelled low in the skills scale!) I need to get better! And I need to get PAYPAL!!!

This female just popped up and said to my face that I was a whore for displaying my art. What the FUCK? Art is meant to be displayed you idiotic bitch. If you’ve got a fucking problem with my growing obsession of my face then FUCK you’ve got a problem with your fucking self. Usually I don’t get angry with fucks like you but dragging my family members and my closest friends into something this small just to prove a point that was full of common shit? Well, to save the person from humiliation and embarrassment and all bad things unimaginable like an axe that somehow accidentally slipped out of my hand and right into the back of her head as I laugh at her, I won’t say her name. I just have one thing to say to you ‘coz I know you are SO going to read this and call me up…

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You’re the fucking whore. If you don’t know how to fucking argue then don’t fucking insult your lack of IQ by spitting shit out of that rotting mouth of yours. Just sit down and stick to pretending you’re pretty.

I’m gonna be drawing six selfportraits excluding research for one assignment while the second assignment is translating other artists’ piece of work and recreating it in my own understanding~

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My profile photo is the first self portrait for my assignment by the way~

There is no meaning behind the title. Just thought it was nice.

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Anyways~ I got to play with charcoal today, which was fun and I got to draw 1/9 of a person’s face. Just 1/9. The other 8/9 are given to others.

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I, though, think got one of the hardest parts of the face… THE CENTER. I got her nose, a full left eye and just a teeny bit of the right eye (tear duct). So it was a little hard. They all loved it though. Other people’s work was better. I was kinda’ happy that they thought mine was good. The girl who did the right eye did a Picasso like style. Someone did a pencile style with CHARCOAL! Which is way cool considering the charcoal’s messy properties…

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By the way, we were all put into groups so the other groups’ pieces kicked ass too.

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I went to my second lecture today too… Today’s was WAY better than Tuesday’s but then the place was cramped. I do’t mean the amount pof students but the distance between the seat and the foldable desk. Everyone was a little annoyed by it but they didn’t complain too much (because the teacher PWNED [oh my God... I used PINK] us all with his fun attitude and fun slides.

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I got home and tried to fix the Channel on the Wireless that Peter the Landlord bought but I guess it just didn’t work (because we all tried to fix it through 5 PCs and 2 Notebooks). We’ll have to ask him to return it tomorrow.

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And since it has gotten colder my artheritis (if you don’t know what that means just look it up) attacked my wrist. Soon, when it gets a little colder, it’ll affect my left shoulder, left knee and also my neck.

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I thank Seit (my friend) for making me attend the First Aid course because if I didn’t i wouldn’t know how to freakin’ bandage my arm properly. I forgot to get my First Aid certificate actually. I think I’ll ask my sis to get it for me.

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And I’d better stop drinking too much coffee. It’ll kill me at a young age… (yes, I know the conssequences.) Withdrawal symptoms etc~ (like a drug addict, haha). Why do I want to stop? It’s giving me stomachaches…. Hhahahaaaha!!! (Note: do not drink more than 5 cups a day……)