Uni Lecture

February 27th, 2007 by bashimaisuhaqu
Boring.
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Anyway… the day started off like this…. [Insert blurry, foggy visual effects into brain].
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I woke up at 6.30 AM and realized I had clas at 11 AM so I took my time and did everything I needed to do. Shower, eat, hunt clouds and draw before I left for Uni at around 9+ AM.
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Because I didn’t know where my class was and the University is WAY enormous I walked ALL the way to the center of the institution. When I got there I checked out the map and almost killed myself. My class was in a block that was so close to my house. So I had to walk all the way back down the same road.
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But it was nothing. The center of the Uni isn’t that far from the block actually but heck… It was the fact that I had to pass the same people who were sitting there twice…. (Feels like an idiot).
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Anyway, when it was time to actually go into the class I waited with these three other people. But no one else came so I felt like as if there was something wrong. I got up, excused myself and picked up a phone to call the Visual Arts administration. When I asked if there was a class there (which by the way was noted in our timetable); the person said there was none. (Visual journal link: http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/49722153/ )
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I went home to eat lunch feeling very, very … well… not really…. annoyed. I had a glass of apple juice and 1/2 a glass of milk (bad combination by the way) and then I left an hour later for my next class… Which was my lecture. (Visual journal link: http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/49742447/ ) I got bored after an hour. But that’s kind of a feat! The others were already tired and moaning. She gave us a five minutes break and everyone started to chat away. It was crazy. Then she spoke again for another hour.
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When I finally got home, I cooked. My Chinese housemates watched me cook. It was crazy coz the onions that I was cutting made me cry like HELL. My eyes were burning, my cold was unfreeing from my nose and I just couldn’t stand it! Usually I would get it over as soon as I chopped the first slice but they were talking to me. They asked me how I cooked, what I cooked, how long etc and that got the onion to spray into my eyes.
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Anyway… I’m REAL full now… It was so good. I should eat sushi some time. ^__^

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I Start Uni

February 26th, 2007 by bashimaisuhaqu
And so another day have passed. I missed my so called compulsory orientation for International students on the 22nd. I was supposed to be at the QUT campus Gardens Point or something like that but I was too busy talking to my family on the phone and also getting my bank activated, which, by the way, I think is more important than an orientation (I’m trying to divert this feeling of I-can’t-believe-I-did-that).
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I’ve selected my classes now and I’ve got my Username and my password. All I need to get used to is where my classes are actually located. It’s such a daymn big Uni… although that’s what I’d expect from a big city…
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It turned out I missed my lecture today (darn) but the class was full so I wouldn’t have been able to sneak in without being noticed… Although… if it weren’t full I’d still not be able to sneak in without being noticed… I’ll have to wait for the lecturer to give me the thumbs up to allocate me a seat.
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Oh, and I heard my obsession’s friend is studying in the same Uni as me. I dunno what campus he goes to though and I doubt we’ll face one another in the near future unless of course coincidence played its flute. I mean like… I study Visual Arts and he studies… well… something not the same I guess. Who knows? Well… I guess he’d know ‘coz it is his course… whatever.
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Oh right, I start Uni tomorrow. My first would be a Tutorial, I dunno what that is. Well… It says Tut in short form. My guess is tutorial. Unless… Ah! Just shut up and see tomorrow… So… Uni starts at 11AM tomorrow and ends at 12PM and then there’s my lecture at 3PM to 5PM. Well… That’s fun…I got 2+ hours of rest before they start working on my brain. Both of those are in the same building so I’ll just stay at the Uni.
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AM I CRAZY? No way am I going to stay at the Uni for 2+ hours without eating… Maybe straight from the tutorial, I’ll go home. Then eat and then head off again after an hour’s rest. I guess I’ll just hunt for the library. Maybe I could find some stuff that would pique my interest. But I definitely won’t go there if it’s too far away. As I said before… My house may be near to my Uni but you have to walk in a 90° angle (hyperbole). And if you don’t know the definition of that, look it up. I’d rather not roll down the hilly terrain when I’m done with school.
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Forget it… I just saw how far it was. Wait! It was just a map! Yea… I should think like that. I’ll walk to the library and go to class 15 minutes before it’s commence time.
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Anyway, I’m gonna get off and draw now. I’ll be on the Internet every night from 7/8 to whenever (would be around midnight to 2AM) unless I have classes the next day, then I’d be on the Internet until around midnight or earlier. But I’d usually be on the Internet already then anyway. If you want to MSN me just make sure you read the little subnickname. It’ll tell you if I’m sitting in front of the computer or not. If it says Be Right Back I’d definitely not be in front of the computer.
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I won’t be in front of the computer if it says:
Hentaigami is asleep.
Hentaigami is at Uni.
Hentaigami is cooking.
So don’t even waste your energy.
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And Ka Qya, if you’re reading this, I miss the whole family. It’s weird to sleep without being interrupted by sliding doors being opened or being bullied by shadows. I drink Bundaberg’s Ginger Beer here and it’s WAY cheap. So I might get a bloated belly by the time I arrive home. And it’s weird… They don’t use recharge cards here but recharge vouchers, which is actually just a long piece of paper with numbers on them etc. I’m not ill anymore although I still do sniff now and again to keep the mucus from dripping down to my chest. Oh… Talking about chests… My baju are mostly sleeveless tops. I’ll be buying more clothes during the weekend I guess… ‘Coz now I know what it feels like to go to a school or workplace with no set uniform.
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Soon… It’ll be autumn…

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Angel of Dreams

February 21st, 2007 by bashimaisuhaqu

Okay… someone’s e-mailed me wondering who Pet is. I’ll tell you guys so no more e-mails of him come through or no one chats to me about him.
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He’s a special guy. We met in UK the second year I was there. He worked in one of the Starbucks branches in Queensway. We met occasionally but we don’t meet up with each others’ friends or family members. We weren’t boyfriend and girlfriend, we weren’t lovers, we weren’t anything like that.
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I love him. Yes. He loves me. Yes. Other than that, we’d never marry or ever think of having a relationship that would bind us in any way LIKE THAT.
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Yes, we met in Brunei last year. He came over to visit for three months. That’s why I love going to Coffee Bean. He’s the one who gave me Ice Blended Mochas and that is the only coffee I will drink in any cafe.
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Now please. Let him rest easy.

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I’ve closed my eyes.
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I had waited for the Darkness Lady. She came that night with tears that dampened the grass and earth. I wanted to see her in her twinkling dress, just to silently watch her from this distance but I couldn’t even see her white glowing face.
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Wrapping myself from this different cold I closed my eyes. But instead of a dream I wished to see, I saw a dream I wished was real. Wrapping his arms around my shoulders as he pulled my head close to his warm beating heart, I breathed in.
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The smell of his skin was as fresh as milk and honey. His chin dug sharply into the top of my head but I didn’t care. He was there. He was here.
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He lifted my chin with an elegant thumb and forefinger. I looked at his face. Why was his expression so sad? His lips moved and I cried.
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How could I hear his voice? All I heard were whispering winds and the downpour of rain. But I did. I heard him. He said to me, in his low gentle voice,
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Close your eyes…
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And so I did.
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I fell into a dark abyss. My heart pounded and my eyes snap open. I looked around and found the darkness comforting. I smiled. He always loved the dark and now I know why I waited for the Darkness Lady.
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Because he was there waiting for her too.
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In Loving Memory of PET; 21 February 1985 - 19 February 2007
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I dreamt of Pet last night. This will be the last journal entry I will ever speak of him.

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In Australia, I Cry

February 19th, 2007 by bashimaisuhaqu
I opened the door of my bedroom and stared out into the dark corridor. My house mate had left with her boyfriend and I was all alone.
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I decided to have a smoke and so grabbed the small black bag I had kept hidden from my mother throughout the week she was with me. I unzipped it and poured the contents out, which consisted of the cigarette case that my sister gave me, the muscle pain relief gel my mom handed me and the nail clipper I had forgotten to give back to my dad.
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After rummaging through the house for a lighter or a box of matches my frustration built up. I decided to go out to the balcony.
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I did so and I stood there staring aimlessly at the park that was in front of the house. My eyes caught a twinkle in the sky and I looked up. My eyes widened as my heart stopped. Suddenly my cheeks dampened from the eavy tears that rolled down to my jaw.
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How could I have hated Australia?
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The sky. She was so beautiful in the night. She wore her dark dress, smoothly covering the world with her darkness and those stars twinkled like shy, mysterious diamonds.
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I stared at this beauty, my eyes continued to burn and I’ve surrendered to her cool voice in the form of light breeze that touched my skin ever so gently.
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Where was this Darkness Lady when I needed her? Or do I need her now?
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I regret pulling away from her embrace so soon. And I hope to see her again.

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What I Think Of Australia Now

February 17th, 2007 by bashimaisuhaqu
First of all, my mom left for Brunei today. I almost cried when she went down the escalator (I can’t go down with her). I didn’t wanna cry either so I tried my best to keep the tears in the ducts. Anyway, she gave me loads of money before she went down so I’m grateful for that, indefinitely.
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RIGHT. Since I’m done with the sad bit I’ll start talking about life in Australia for the one week and a day that I’ve been here~
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The first day was hell. Expensive reality hit me SMACK on the face. It was so hard getting a last minute place at 10+PM so anyone going to Australia please book a place a WEEK before arriving.
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The second day was depressing. I was searching for a place to stay (long term) and there were so many disappointments. It wasn’t the area or the places that disappointed me but the people who were renting out the places. They make an appointment with you or they promised to call you but they don’t come or do it at all. Which was kind of annoying. I expected them to be… well… more organized than that. So that night I tossed and turned in bed and had nightmares.
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The third day was better though. I found a place I liked and it was close to the university. Great timing too because the guy who rented out the place was there. He showed me the place and I loved it because it was homey (sp?)… He asked me to come again the next day.
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I bought loads of stuff on the fourth day and I came over at around 2 to meet with the girl who I was gonna live with. She was nice. She’s real quiet too. AND SHE FREEKIN’ COSPLAYS!!! Most of her collections are the same as mine BUT… we don’t talk much about anime or manga. We both may have the same interests but we’re just too different.
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On the fifth day I moved in at around 10 AM. My room mate left for Valentine’s and we left the house for MORE shopping. More clothes, more food, more kitchenware etc etc…
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On the sixth day we cleaned a bit of the house. My room, the upstairs porch/balcony and also threw the trash out. By the time we were done mom and I were pretty hungry so we went out to buy a RED SNAPPER. She mutilated the fish and I watched with amusement as she made it dance and swim in air. She made me clean the guts out and made me clean and cut shrimps too~ We ate A LOT. It was Fish Head Curry and rice. SO UNBELIEVABLY DELICIOUS (only because we’ve been eating salads, bread and fruits for the last few days).
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On the SEVENTH day, we did MORE and MORE shopping. And I was becoming more and more happy. I found a place to stay, I’ve got stuff for my house, I’ve found out I could understand the bus system here. I think that by the time I’ve stayed her for a month or two I’d be an expert in the Australian ways~ (Yea right).
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Today, I woke up late because I had a headache and a cold/flu that I caught from my mom. She had been sick for over four - five days and I only caught it last night. We reached the airport later that morning and she left. She bought quite a few souvenirs for everyone back home. I bought some for her to bring along too. I didn’t feel helpless at all actually when she left. I walked around the airport as if I knew where everythinng was and I used a taxi back. Cleaned up the mess in the house and that was it.
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Anyway, Australia is actually a nice, friendly place to be in. The people here are always smiling when you talk to them. They always say good day. If you say excuse me (please choose those who are walking slowly and without purpose~) they’ll look up at you and then smile and say "Yes?".
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The prices in Australia (as I’ve mentioned before) are really quite high. But the things are taxed and all that. So I don’t mind it. As long as I’ve enough money to eat and live here then that is fine.
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The weather right now is cold. Even though it’s summer it’s turning autumn soon. The rain here is quite heavy when the clouds need Earth to be their toilet. But compared to other countries…. It’s actually quite nice. Brunei’s rain is never light and if it was light it’d still hit you hard. In UK, the rain’s just annoying because it’s coupled with wind MOST of the times. Here… It’s nice.
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All I have to do now is wait. Wait for uni to actually start. Anyway… Til here.
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Man…….. Do I miss my family or what?!

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Shopping

February 14th, 2007 by bashimaisuhaqu
I’ve found a place in Brisbane to call home… My mom cooked for me…. Lunch and dinner and it was nice… It turned out not to be tempura but shrimps in thick sauce… WHICH was SO unbelievably nice. And side dish fries~ Hahha~
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All I have to do is drink loads of coffee (what has this got to do with anything?) and start with this new life of mine….
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My guru~ (a friend of mine who’s leaving Brisbane for Melbourne~) was saying all these things and telling me how I should do things by myself and all that and I was…. and am.. really pissed off and grateful~ Hahha~~~!!!
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Anyway.. Today I went on a shopping spree with my mom… Costed us $300 + for the whole thing and will be buying more tomorrow… Gonna open up a bank account tomorrow too~ Commonwealth Bank if I’m not mistaken. Thanksies to Ay and Infi for telling me what to choose ‘coz there are loads of banks scattered around… And HSBC in Australia sucks…. You can’t really see HSBC that much and it’s scattered like hay in…. sliced off dead dry grass….
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Anyway… I’ll have to buy an HDD, Tablet, Scanner and if I’m lucky, some more clothes. I need different shoes too… Something that’s… comfortable to wear in Australia… Especially with the long uphill and downhill walks….
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Night everyone~ Need to pray the Isyak prayers~

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Brisbane, Australia

February 13th, 2007 by bashimaisuhaqu

I arrived in Brisbane on Saturday 10th at around 10 PM without a place to stay or anywhere to go and I was with my mother. By the time we did find a place (Thanks to that person behind the tourism counter) it was around 11PM. I was kind of pissed off with the fact that I wasn’t prepared for everything and I was kind of guilty…NO… I was guilty for doing this to my mother. That night I didn’t sleep well either so that part was annoying too…. It rained heavily that night.
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On Sunday, we walked around. We got lost for a while and we reached Adelaide Street, Queenstreet Mall and that other street. We also went to this place where I was supposed to check out before renting. We went by taxi but by the time we reached there teh person who rents the place out wasn’t around at all… And told us to come on Monday… And I didn’t want to anymore… And I lost all hope (Not all but I wasn’t in the mood to live and was kind of sad and depressed and didn’t want to move anymore). haha. I walked with my mother from Kelvin Grove all the way to … I dunno where and it was just a few more minutes walk but after looking at my mother I decided to use a Taxi. She looked like she couldn’t walk anymore and it was true… Her body hurt and so did mine (but only because I was carrying all of our stuff around… we bought a few foodstuff along the way to eat at the hotel).
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I REALLY didn’t sleep well last night. I had a bad headache and I tossed and turned and by the time it was dusk.. I decided to swallow a pill. I hit the bed and fell asleep and BOY did I fall asleep. I still tossed and turned and I had nightmares of a man who was trying to kill me and the only way I could free myself of his grasp was scream, kick the blankets off of me and wake my mother unpurposely. She asked what was wrong and I told her "Aku ngigau". And that was that…
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This morning my mother told me that I woke her up last night more then five times because I was mumbling, screaming and also kicking the blankets throughout the night. By the time she WAS able to sleep it was around early morning just before dawn… I feel REAL bad….
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But today was great… I got myself a place that was a few minutes walk to my University!!!! And it was close to supermarkets, restaurants and a park. It’s secured and nice… It’s an old house but I don’t really care about that. And it’s somewhat homey… I’m moving in tomorrow and then that’s it. I’ll just have to prepare everything from there and start getting used to the place. And once I do get used to the place then I’m happy and well… Just like the first few days in the UK alone~!!! It will be a great time! A great place!!! I’m sure of it!!!….
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Although I still prefer UK to Australia…. But I’m here now. I might as well make the best of it! RIGHT! Bas! GET READY FOR A WHOLE NEW WORLD!!!

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Farewell Brunei

February 8th, 2007 by bashimaisuhaqu
Alright, I’m leaving tomorrow to Australia at 1 PM…. I’ll be at the airport by 10.30-11.30AM… Checking in and all that shyte… I haven’yt finished packing at all yet and I’m not bringing loads of things….
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The feeling… I don’t feel anything huge at all… No heavy heart, no tears just yet and I think I’ll be crying whne I’m up in the sky… The sky’s the limit you know.

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DEATHNOTE: The Last Name

February 3rd, 2007 by bashimaisuhaqu
I watched DEATHNOTE with a few other friends a while ago and yesterday I watched DEATHNOTE: The Last Name yesterday! It was so GREAT! I was going crazy for L and because of him I bought a huge lollipop candy~!!! The flat circular candy on a stick~~!! Nyahaha~ ^____^
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So I’m in love with ‘L’ and I really love how he died. For justice he killed himself. I wish I could do something like that or is smart enough to think up of something like that.
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He’s so cool…. And cute… and gnawable~
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And I love Light tOo but not as much as ‘L’~ I love Light’s EvilNess~ but I love ‘L’ for his cuteNess, personality and just for being him~~!!!!
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L! L! L! L! L! L! L! L! L! L! L! L! L! L! L! L! L! L!

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I Hate My Sister And You Asked Why…

January 26th, 2007 by bashimaisuhaqu
I’m really annoyed with the fact that I can’t find an accomodation. It also annoyed me to no end with the fact that my sister talked my mother out of getting a bank loan. She told her how unmotivated I was.
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UNMOTIVATED? I was freekin’ excited and she slyly killed it by poisoning my mother with HER observations. She thinks she owns the family. She thinks she’s the successful one. Sure. But look at her… She hasn’t even gotten her gym on its feet yet! Daymn it! Why does she have to look down on us? Because she can speak foreign languages fluently? Because she thinks she IS superior to all of us? Freekin’… And she has her self help books. They ain’t helping her out. They’re just making her even more insecure and more confused because of the different authors, different methods and ALSO different suggestions.
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Ka, if you’re reading this, I gotta’ say that I’m sorry that you didn’t hear it from me and face to face and that you had to read it in a public web blog instead. I’m too tired to take in all your useless spitting criticism that just lowers a person’s self esteem. I’m used to it but there’s a limit to every person.
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I wish I could tell her that she needs to stick to her own problems, which I know she has but would not like to admit. My problems MAY include or involve other members of the family but at least it would be between that member of the family and me ONLY. She doesn’t need to stick her nose in our affairs…
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Really… I don’t hate her. I just dislike her view of our abilities and our intelligence. I told my mom in a moment of explosive emotional breakdown:
"Paloi jua eh! She has to understand that we are FAMILY and not one of her workers! Why can’t she seperate business and personal issues?"
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My mother laughed there but heck; I would’ve done so too. I started blurting stuff out to my mom. She laughed out loud in the car because all that was coming out of my mouth was true. Once I got to work, she stopped me from going out and said to me:
"You’re going to Australia now. Three years without seeing her should be enough to cool you down."
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I love my mom. ^_^

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